Shopping raya...

Dah selesai dah shopping raya. Lega rasanya. Ramadhan blh tumpu sepenuh perhatian utk beribadat.. hehehehe.. baju anak2 dah settle. More like beli baju utk kakak. baju dia semua dah kecik. especially seluaq. Tinggi minah tu, seluaq her age mmg tak muat. Sorry.. hehehe blasah beli seluaq besaq terus.. utk budak umoq 8 and 10.. lipat byk sikit la kat bawah tu.. but ok la.. tahan lama sikit. Zalim ka..? err rasanya tak.. hehehe baju pun beli saiz besaq... age 9-10.. dia pakai tgk elok2 aja... tah lama mana la blh pakai tu.

Apa2 pun... lega dah settle semua. Mak pak sorang selai pun cukup dah.. Tu pun pasai ikut theme. Theme ijau raya kali ni.. hehehe sempena Xpin.

Slamat nyambut ramadhan...

Temper Temper

Temper.. Temper..

Lately, I’ve been loosing my temper a lot. Why? How come? I don’t know. Maybe it’s a hormone thing. Yeah! Blame it on the hormones.. it’s great to be a woman. Kesian Kakak and Adik.. I really don’t know why. Maybe it’s pressure? What pressure? I’m not working, I’m a full time housewife. So what is it? Money? Boredom? A mix of both?

I know most of the working mom out there prefer to spend more time with their children. Everyone of them would say, how lucky u r… *LUCKY? Sigh..* how I wish I could stay home.. *STAY HOME?*.. Best tak payah kerja.. *BEST?*.. I don’t know. I’ve been staying home since I got married. Do I feel lucky? Yes.. I do. Best tak kerja… mmg best. So why must I feel bored? Doing the same thing all over again? Or is it because I’ve been staying with my parents too long? I don’t know… SIGH…

To study or not to study...

Been thinking about this for quite some time now. Still haven't decided yet. Pening jugak bila memikir kan bab nih. Teringin nak study sesangat but at the same time takut tengah study kemalasan melanda. Then again kena cari sponsor dulu, but then layak ke dapat sponsor? Slalu kalau sponsor kena terikat, kalau ambik Skim Latihan Tenaga Pengajar Muda kena terikat (kalau diterima la). PHd at least terikat 10 tahun. Sanggup ke jadi Lecturer selama 10 tahun. Nak mengajar pun tak berapa gemar sangat. Yelah, sapa la kita nak ngajar org ni. Waduh... Fenin.. fenin... But then again, sronok jugak nak ngajar nih. Hmm entah ler.. Solat Istikharah nampak gayanya.

Another thing is... what to study. Dah satu hal lagi pulak. In order to research something intresting that I can do, or I want to do memang susah. Semua ni conclude to ONE thing... I dont know Me or Me dont know I.. I.. Me.. Me.. I.. Who am I..?! Who I am?! Have to get back to basic I guess.. Proses mengenal diri sendiri... Hampehh....

Ramadhan hampir tiba..

Dah lepas nisfu Syaaban, Ramadhan dah hampir. Dah sedia ke? Macam blom aja. This year Ramadhan akan surely lain dari other Ramadhan. Firstly, memula plan nak posa kat rumah sendiri, mcm tak jadi aja. Sbbnya my beloved hubby kena pi Japan for 3 weeks. So he'll be much at ease kalau I stay with my parents. Tapi with him not around tu.. dah biasa dah. So nothing much to it. Will miss him a lot though... *sigh*.

Anyway, lagi satu kezutan pada Ramadhan akan datang nih is that my beloved grandma will be spending her Ramadhan with us. First time... sepanjang idup. Why?! She's feeling lonely... teringat my late granpa kot. Sian dkt dia. Trying to pujuk my mom to pindah balik perlis, tapi mcm tak nak aja. Semuanya sbb my grandma willing to come here.. Apa2 pun.. it's good to have 'org lama' dkt rumah. Banyak petua dan nasihat yg blh digunakan. Yihaa..

Apa2 pun... Ramadhan hampir tiba, persiapkan diri dengan sebaiknya. Bukan sekadar utk mendapatkan mlm Lailatul Qadar saja but to kumpul pahala yg berlipat x ganda sempena Ramadhan..

First time...

Yesterday for the first time, I bake muffins. Tak pernah terpikir lansung nak buat muffin, sbb I dont really like muffins, or cakes (xcept for cheesecake) or donuts or biscuits etc. So bila dah tak suka nak masak lagi la kan?! Xpin is more of a cake person. She began to bake cakes or biskut raya when she's only 12. So anything yg melibatkan cake or seangkatan dgnnya semua tugas diserahkan dkt dia.

I'm more into cooking western dish. Lasagna (yg diminati ramai... ahaks), spaghetti (juga diminati ramai), cheese steak (chicken or beef), potato n brocolli salad etc... Nasi, mee, mihun semua tu blh jugak and blh tahan jugak sedapnya.. hahahaha but lagi prefer to try masak western food. So far tak pernah fail.

So berbalik pada muffins yg dibuat ptg semlm, I choose to buat chocolate chip muffins. (Sebenarnya tak teringin pun nak buat, tapi atas influence MamiA, and dok pikir mungkin budak2 akan tergila2 so they'll eat something.. so try la jugak). Blh tahan jugak sedapnya, cuma a little bit sweet for my taste. Budak2 suka jugak tapi tak la tergila2. So the verdict, no more cooking muffins, cakes or biscuits.. hehehehe I'll stick to western food and everyday cooking.

This is how it looks like out from the oven	A rather flat muffin

Waaa... Part 2

Ok blh smbg balik...

23th August - Bibi balik Perlis mlm, since dia kerja ikut time dia so dia blh balik anytime la. Same day ma pa balik kl. Balik mlm naik flight. Heran kenapa ma balik. Dah mintak dia tunggu tok abah, but she insisted that pa soh balik for her chemo treatment. Pelik kenapa la nak rush2 when somebody is fighthing for his life.

24th August - It seems that dr kata harapan is very very slim. Ma was admitted, berbelah bagi nak balik perlis tgk Tok Abah or nak dok KL teman ma. Last2 decided to dok KL aja. Bengang jugak sbb kena berbelah bagi mcm tu. If ma dkt perlis x balik KL lagi, hari tu jugak dah balik Perlis. What to do. dah tertulis.

25th August - Dpt msg dari Bibi 'Tok Abah BP is very low 50/30, dr is trying to pump his heart. PLs tell ur mom'. MasyaAllah, rasa guilty tak balik semlm. At 11.15am my only Granpa passed away. He was 84. His story came out the news the next day. http://202.188.124.45/events/merdeka2005/newsfull.php?id=152159

Al- Fatihah....

Waaa...

Lamanye tak berblog nih.. Banyak betul benda yg jadi. Tup tap tup tap tau tau dah sebulan lebih dah tak blog. Sebulan 6 hari to be exact. First and foremost I would like to wish 'HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY' to my beloved BAZLEEN. Dah besar dah anak mama. Makin notti.. makin bijak.. semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki, dijauhkan dari segala penyakit dan lastly.. the most important thing is semoga Allah menjadikan adik anak yg solehah. Aminnnn...

OK.. let me list down apa yg jadi the whole month yg kononnya busy tu.

1. Adik was admitted on the 7th pm.. around 23:30, because of 'slider bronchitis' (apa benda pun tak sure). Keluar on the 10th masa jerubu menyerang Lembah Klang dgn teruknya.

2. Then dpt tau Tok Abah was admitted. Jatuh dlm bilik, was found unconsious in weird position. Tgn sebelah still atas katil. Lain2 body part jatuh. There's some blood dkt dagu. Was rushed to hospital. Turn out that ada blood clogged dkt center of the brain. Depa rasa he tried to get up and belaga kepala dkt bawah meja tepi. And ada sikit heart problem. Tok Abah never ada problem dgn heart, pelik. Wallahuaklam..

3. Accident!! First accident in my life... di tarikh bersejarah 14 August 2005, after 10 years pegang lesen. I was sure there's no car or bike around. I'm not careless tapi nak buat mcmana.. accident dah nak jadi. Abis kereta Xpin. Sian dia. I was in shocked for abt 24 hrs. Rasa guilty yg amat sangat dkt Xpin, sbb kereta baru dia dah tercemar. Kreta masuk workshop on the 15th.

4. Feel strongly utk balik Perlis and tgk Tok Abah. Something amiss there. Lagipun Tok Umi mmg dah admitted because of lung infection, sbb jerubu. Blh tgk Tok Umi sekali. But then dpt sms from Nda on the 16th (dia dkt Perlis) saying 'Tok Abah is recovering, dah mula mkn, dah blh minum and dah start melawak'. Still rasa that I should go back and see him. Bgtau Zul, he said Tok Abah dah ok sikit tu, kita pergi later. I said ok. Walaupun hati tak senang.

5. 17th August - dpt news yg Tok Abah akan dimasukkan ke CCU. It seems that BP dia drop rather drastically. Terus ckp dkt mama, we have to balik now. Kelam kelibut sekejap time tu. Semua nak balik, mcmana nak balik? Takkan pakai 3 kereta kot. 3 pun tak cukup.. kena 4.. Last last dpt pinjam Unser Mc.. then pinjam kereta kwn Xpin. Terpaksa, Wira merah masuk workshop, wira 1 lg tukar dgn unser mc. Rush to the airport, antar mama by flight. Mama tak blh travel lama2. Alhamdulillah dpt tiket. Then rush balik rumah, tukar kereta dgn Mc, last2.. around 23:30 baru bertolak balik Perlis. At that time mama dah selamat lawat Tok Abah and dia dah selamat lena.

6. Reached Perlis around 05:00am, A.Arif and family minus T2 pun arrived at the same time. dpt tido sekejap before berangkat ke hospital utk jengok Tok Abah. Jumpa Tok Abah, dia ngadu misi jahat, yg baju biru. Semuanya sbb misi terpaksa ikat tgn and kaki di bed sbb Tok Abah mengamuk nak balik and bukak abis all the wires. Sabaq Tok Abah, mcmana nak baik. (Sedih tgk Tok Abah, muka dah berubah, bengkak, bdn2 pun nampak bengkak.)

7. 19th August - Happy Birthday to Papa. Happy 62nd Birthday!! Bagi new handphone, at all abis. Mana duit ni... sorang pun tak bayaq lagi! Ma call Apiq, soh balik.. ajak Atief. Balik sekarang utk tgk Tok Abah. More bad news, BP Tok Abah jatuh lagi, Kidney not functioning, Tok Abah dah tak sedaq. But just before life support tube dimasukkan Tok Abah bukak mata and sedaq, papa and ami sempat suruh Tok Abah ngucap, Alhamdulilah. Tok Abah dah on life support. Tok Umi ngamuk, nak dok sebelah Tok Abah. X boleh, tu kan CCU. Tok Umi nangis on her way back to her ward.

8. 20th August - Bibi cried, said that Tok Abah punya rupa berlain sangat2. By this time Tok Abah dah tak bukak mata dah. Dr bagi dialysis treatment. Semua sepakat tak mau bg tok Umi tgk Tok Abah, sbb tau she will definitely cry and mungkin mengamuk dkt situ. Most importantly tak mau bg dia risau. True enough, lps tgk Tok Abah semlm dia tak lalu mkn and BP naik mendadak. Ngamuk tak mau mkn ubat. Dato Ustaz Nordin melawat, bgtau that nobody should tinggaikan Tok Abah alone. Mesti ada 2 org sekali dgn Tok Abah at all times. Sorang ngucap ditelinga, sorang lagi baca ayat kursi. kenapa ayat kursi bukan yasin?! Daripada explaination Tok Abah masa sihat2 dulu, katanya yasin baca utk diri sendiri, kalau org tgh nazak bacalah ayat kursi, supaya syaitan tak datang mengganggu. MMg time nazak syaitan yg dtg ganggu kan?! Kami anak cucu just follow apa yg dia kata.

9. 21st August - Tok Abah still mcm tu, but kami semua kena balik. Compensionate leave masing2 dah tamat. Lagipun Unser mc road tax mati hari ni, road tax kwn xpin pulak abis 25th. Punya la nak jadi cerita. Nak tak nak balik jugak. Bibi pun balik, cuma tinggal Nda and Bibicik.

Later sambung.. penat la pulak