persoalan yang timbul.. like, apakah sebenarnya yang berlaku? kenapa berfikiran atau berperasaan seperti ini? bagaimanakah ini terjadi? siapakah yang patut dipersalahkan? dan yang paling penting apakah yang harus dilakukan?
Iye...it's one of those days again, tapi makin kerap jadi dah nowadays. :(. Napa ye? Sebab PMS? Bukan... this feels more like menopause aje. (Hahaha macam bagus aje, macam la pernah lalu menopause ni) So extremelah the feelings. Teruk sangat ke my hormon ni? But i'm not even 40... Is it really possible..?
I can change from a goody2 person to a monster you've never seen before in split seconds... from someone who's tougher than a rock to a melted iron in a blink of an eye...why can't i fight these feelings? I want to fight it real bad...i really do, but i just cannot help it. Maybe you'll say, i should try harder or i didn't try hard enough...well i did..believe me i did..but the harder i tried...the worst i become...what's happening here?
Tak pernah stop berdoa, and mintak pertolongan Allah.. but it works only for a while...only when i'm free from my monthly due...how to deal with it when its the time of the month? the time when i feel the worst? Sometimes i feel like going betapa dkt gua mana2 so i wont hurt anybody...yup, its that bad.. Sesapa please help... :(.
Iye...it's one of those days again, tapi makin kerap jadi dah nowadays. :(. Napa ye? Sebab PMS? Bukan... this feels more like menopause aje. (Hahaha macam bagus aje, macam la pernah lalu menopause ni) So extremelah the feelings. Teruk sangat ke my hormon ni? But i'm not even 40... Is it really possible..?
I can change from a goody2 person to a monster you've never seen before in split seconds... from someone who's tougher than a rock to a melted iron in a blink of an eye...why can't i fight these feelings? I want to fight it real bad...i really do, but i just cannot help it. Maybe you'll say, i should try harder or i didn't try hard enough...well i did..believe me i did..but the harder i tried...the worst i become...what's happening here?
Tak pernah stop berdoa, and mintak pertolongan Allah.. but it works only for a while...only when i'm free from my monthly due...how to deal with it when its the time of the month? the time when i feel the worst? Sometimes i feel like going betapa dkt gua mana2 so i wont hurt anybody...yup, its that bad.. Sesapa please help... :(.
Abg, my dearest hubby, thanks for being so understanding when i'm going thru it. U r the best!
Kids, i'm sorry for being so tough on u gals.. "Maafkan mama ye :("
To my sis (all of em) and my close friends...sorry if i ever hurt u in any way... u know i never mean any of it.. i just cant help myself.. please forgive me.. :(
I'm in a mess...real mess...
This is too tough for me to handle... Allah.. please give me strength..
p/s - now i think i know how mama felt when she was going thru this...
1 comment:
My dear, don't be too hard on yourself. I get those days too. Yelah, hormones and being a woman with a million things to do doesn't help AT ALL! (especially in my case, I've got to do EVERYTHING!)
I think it's all a test of Iman. That's why you have your soul mate (I mengadu kat Allah je now ni sbb soulmate dah tak de). I always tell myself it means I've got to be closer to Him. More amalan, more ibadah. Belum cukup lagi ayat-ayat Quran yang dibaca. Belum cukup lagi solat2 sunat. Belum cukup lagi ikut amalan seorang Muslimah solehah. Itu je lah kot. Yelah, kita semua lain personality tapi there surely are ways of minimising stress.
Oh, and it helps to jaga makan! (not that I do...hehe!) Eh my dear, kena exercise lebih kot... macam zaman2 sekolah dulu. Kan you athletic habih kan? ;) Release the negative vibes!
Good luck & I pray for your wellbeing.
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